27 Agustus 2011 My Regrets --> You're disappointed

Will this be the end of everything ?

Guess this is really over now

There's something I gotta say before I let you go

Listen !!

here I just want to apologize

because maybe I have made you disappointed

I really do not mean to make you hurt

there may be a negative opinion about the change of my attitude

Without you realizing that I also changed because of you

you have put a propic(fto profil) together with other women

and it makes me very disappointed to you

Therefore I turned to be cold with you

I do not care, as though not care about you

and that's when I think how step to the next ?

I am sure you never think about it

you have to know that I love you so much , You very meaningful to me

My Dear , please do not leave me

Please , Look at me !!!!

behind my smile I was really hurt

why did you do all this to me ? Why ?

you leave with another girl , and left me alone

I hurt, I'm not willing to see you with another girl

My Dear come back to me, on my side, in my heart

I know, I'm wrong, give me a second chance

I am sorry

I'm really hurt ..

I'm not willing to let you go with another girl

YOU, who never understood my feelings

Because of that, I ended up despising you

Would all ending here?

my sacrifice, my struggle , this feelings

every night I cry, and think about all this and then I close my eyes and pray I hope you come back by my side

By all means, if u happy with other..

I can move on with pleasuring . . but,

Please erase me out of your heart

Although I tried my best but,

I've been living inside the lies for too long

Although it will really over,

Although it will really end . . . .

thank you for all you've given

and last I AM SORRY MY DEAR

Yaallah :( Kenapa naa? kok jadi gini ?? bukannya ini yang aku mau ? kenapa jadi kaya gini ? bukankah semuanya telah berhasil.? sejujurnya aku cuma ngerasa bersalah iyakaannn? ngersa bersalah karena kamu udah baik sama aku . Aku JAHAT yaaaa? kamu udah baik , care , dan aku hancurin itu semuaa ? aku memang sadis .

Yaallah ini adlah yang kedua kali nya , gaboleh terulang lagi ah buat kedepannya biarinlah yang udah mah udah we , jangan lakuin itu sekarang mah aku harus bisa ngejaga baik2 ah ..

ada 2 kemungkinan sih : 

1. kamu memang udah ngerasa ngga bangeet 

2. gara gara si rizki .. kamu di suruh rizki atau ngga memang dari awal ini rencana kamu .

ahh apapun ituu aku gaboleh jatuh . Yaallah maafkan aku maafkan aku yang udah bikin orang lain kecewa :( maafin anna yaallah , aku gakan ngulangin itu lagi . Makasii yaa kamu udah jadi orang yang baik , sayangnya kamu ga punya keberanian buat ngadepin saya .

Keep Smiley Naaa semua tlah berujung disini . kamu berhasil Naa :)